Some of these months have gone by really quickly, while others drug on for what seemed like forever. Throughout this time my faith has really pushed me to keep going everyday. I'm not a perfect person by any means and I would never claim to be. I make mistakes just like everyone else, but I really owe it to the big man for everything in life. I have an amazing family, wonderful friends and the best, most loving guy I could ever ask for in my life...all due with God's help. This deployment has really strengthened my faith all around. I've developed the habit to take time every night before I fall asleep to pray. I believe that God has shown me more than ever since Sky has been gone that I can get through anything, no matter how hard the situation may be. There is always light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how long the tunnel is.
Since Sky left, things haven't all been easy. I had to overcome the scary fact that he was going to war to fight for our country and was going to be put in danger everyday and to continue positive. But, all I can do is support him no matter what and pray that God watches over him and the men he is with. This summer was really rough too. Things were a lot different during than last summer. It was the first summer back from college and all of my friends were working or busy including myself. I had a full time job that I hated some days and loved others, but was blessed to have for the time it lasted. Unfortunately though, I was getting thrown through the ringer over and over again there with no stability what so ever. I had a major foot surgery done and was on crutches and in a boot until the middle of July, and thankfully was able to continue work despite my circumstances. Right after I got my boot off some unexpected issues happened with my job and I was no longer working there. I made so many wonderful friends over the summer from that job, and I wouldn't take back a day if I had the choice despite the end results. I was welcomed very easily by every man in that shop and I was so lucky to develop the relationships that I did with everyone there. Then, come the middle of July, my grandpa was in the hospital with major heart issues. This was his second time being critical in the hospital, and I thank God everyday that he is alive and gaining strength right now. The rest of the summer seemed like it went by really slow after everything in July. I learned the values of friendship, love, honesty and betrayal more than I would've ever imagined I could at the age of 19 just from just one summer.
Those times were probably the hardest its been since Sky has been deployed. I wasn't able to talk to the one person who I feel knows me better than I know myself most of the time. When he was home, he was ALWAYS there when I was sad, moody, and even when I just needed to cry. At this point of the deployment, we weren't able to communicate for about a month. This was the longest month of my life. Not having him there was really, really difficult, but I overcame this with a smile on my face, staying strong for him. I knew that if I broke down, he would too and I wouldn't allow that to happen. I knew he'd want me to be smiling no matter what, so I made that conscious effort to do that.
As these months go by, I continue to have obstacles thrown my way, but I can't let down now. I figure it's God testing my strength throughout this deployment. I can't believe that Sky will be home in a couple months though, it is CRAZY how fast this time has gone. This past weekend Jessi and I spent Saturday with his mom watching movies, shopping and looking through old baby pictures! Oh my did I have so much fun!! We were talking about his homecoming the entire day and it made me SO happy just talking about it!
It's truly amazing how much support I've had through this. I never feel alone at any minute, knowing that I have my family, his family and all of my friends out there's support and prayers. I couldn't do it without everyone, so thank you all so much for being there for me through the good times and bad.
Those times were probably the hardest its been since Sky has been deployed. I wasn't able to talk to the one person who I feel knows me better than I know myself most of the time. When he was home, he was ALWAYS there when I was sad, moody, and even when I just needed to cry. At this point of the deployment, we weren't able to communicate for about a month. This was the longest month of my life. Not having him there was really, really difficult, but I overcame this with a smile on my face, staying strong for him. I knew that if I broke down, he would too and I wouldn't allow that to happen. I knew he'd want me to be smiling no matter what, so I made that conscious effort to do that.
As these months go by, I continue to have obstacles thrown my way, but I can't let down now. I figure it's God testing my strength throughout this deployment. I can't believe that Sky will be home in a couple months though, it is CRAZY how fast this time has gone. This past weekend Jessi and I spent Saturday with his mom watching movies, shopping and looking through old baby pictures! Oh my did I have so much fun!! We were talking about his homecoming the entire day and it made me SO happy just talking about it!
It's truly amazing how much support I've had through this. I never feel alone at any minute, knowing that I have my family, his family and all of my friends out there's support and prayers. I couldn't do it without everyone, so thank you all so much for being there for me through the good times and bad.
I can't WAIT for him to come back and get another motorcycle! <3 <3 <3
LOVE her so much! I couldn't ask for a better best friend. She's been through this entire thing with me with full support. Thanks, Court <3
Jessi & I have grown closer than ever the past 4 months & I couldn't be more lucky as a sister.
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